My new sweet addiction

Oh my gosh, I've just spent the last couple of hours (that's from 7 am till now) reading the most charming and inspiring blog of all: my happy little life (thank you, thank you dear Kelly!) And it dawned on me that here I am, lying in my warm bed with my hot water bottle by my side at 9 in the morning (when I would normally be soundly asleep) reading, not being able to stop and that I am, as of now, officially addicted to blog. I love it love it love it and am now so full of ideas and inspirations and good positive crafty energy that although it is so early now (that would be middle of the night for me only yesterday), I want to wake up and go and live and do and experience and be and run around like a small child that has seen snow falling down from the sky for the first time in life. It's like awakening. I feel like my life is only to start now. What was I doing before, I ask? Well, I forgot about so many things that make life delightful and cheerful and got entangled in grayness and mundane-ness of things, forgot to cherish the little lovely things that life brings, forgot to smile when smile was due, to take off my masks when I should have been myself and proud of it. Instead, I enclosed myself in a cage of poorlittleme feelings and thoughts. So what I don't have a child yet, so what my new home is little and I don't know where the washing machine will go, so what I can't drive and don't have a car, so what I don't have enough money to do everything I want, so what I don't have beautiful skin, beautiful clothes, beautiful shoes and bags. So what I am a bit rounder than health experts advise, so what I can't just get on the plane and go to my mum's and have a sip of her homemade wine and chat with her about funny things our cat does. Enough of thinking about what I can't or don't do or don't have or am not. Time to start living everyday as if it was the most beautiful day of my life and all my dreams became true at once. Finding little miracles in every corner, under every leaf of all the beautiful Antalya plants, under every stone on the beach. Falling head front into all the little magic that life is, that life shows us every moment in every thing we are in. There are so many things in my life to be grateful for. I'm grateful for all the people I have ever met, I'm grateful for all the people that are in my life now: my dearest, my greatest friend Kemal whom I love with all the power of my heart, my wonderful mum I miss deeply and love, my dad who is my greatest supporter, my brother who is my dearest soul buddy, my friends in London whom I love and miss and am so happy that although we are so far apart we manage to stay close, my new wonderful friend Iwona, who makes me feel at home in Turkey, my mother in law who teaches me how to cook lovely Turkish meals. I'm grateful for my new flat - for its walls that I'll be able to paint, I'm grateful for the sea and it's beautiful blue that every time I look at takes me straight into heaven. I'm grateful for everything I have - my laptop - so I can write this now, my bed - for being so cuddly and warm, my hot coffee - that I'm just about to make for myself, I'm grateful for all the yummy jams I made and am able to eat now and I'm grateful for all the beautiful blogs there are for their inspirations and love and joy they spread around the world. And I'm grateful for my own blog - my channel through which I can express all my gratitude and love for all the things I love and am grateful for. And I'm grateful for my new sweet addiction. It makes my life worth waking up for.