more space

"During Spring in my cabin
Absolutely nothing,
Absolutely everything."
(Kobayashi Issa)

this comes from the book i am reading - the art of simplicity by dominique loreau.

i'm glad the spring finally arrived. i'm inspired to create more space.

at home in poland

from london i went to my home in poland - to my mum, dad, brother and cat. to the new house. the weather was cold, rainy, windy. i didn't feel like going out. i just wanted to stay at home with my mum and dad and just enjoy being a child again for a while. i guess it's good to do that from time to time and i wish i could do that more often. it was great to eat my mum's food, drink homemade vodkas and wines, play with my cat, talk with my parents and brother, meet his girlfriend ula, see my whole family, watch polish tv, listen to conversations about politics, find out what's going on in my country.

but although it was great to be there, i was so happy to be back to my home in turkey, to my kemal, to our little life, to the sea and the sun. i guess this is my home now.

when i was in london and then in poland i wished i could take all the things i love about these places and pack them all to my bag and take with me home. but the british airways only allow to take 23kg onboard, so i had to leave many "things" behind.........

revisiting old paths

the trip to london was a trip down the memory lane. though i felt as if i'd just come back from a short holiday. didn't feel the time that passed since i had left.
it was good to be back for a while. good to meet my lovely people. revisit my favourite places. see what's changed. what's gone and what's new. see myself against all the changes. see what has changed in me and what is still the same. realise what i have lost and what i have gained by leaving and moving to turkey. realise i love this city. realise i would not be able to live there anymore.

i'm so happy i could meet ania, ibo, ola, anton, my cousin grzesiu, agnieszka, my lovely friends from work: tine, bea, celine.
i'm so sad i couldn't see meral and murat, gosia and brian, agnieszka, greg and maja - i'm so sorry guys. i hope i will see you soon somehow.
it was also weird to be there alone - i missed kemal a lot and it would've been more fun if he could come with me...


i'm glad i could revisit the old paths. they helped me see the path i am on now more clearly.